May 26, 2012
It's Saturday around 6:00 in the evening and I have just been lounging, or better, lazy all day today. I have been on my new job now for two weeks and really seem to be liking it. The owner is really pushing me to take over the every day operations of the company and I feel blessed. I know I can do the job and am looking forward to the challenges that it may bring. I feel I am back in the game once more. It has been almost two and half years since I last worked or had a real job. It has been so rough lately trying to find something and the economy is not helping the matter and was making it much more difficult. It's a smaller company with big profits and it is only going to get bigger which makes it much more exciting to be at the ground level of this and to see it expand to bigger opportunities.
June 24, 2012
Almost a whole month later since I wrote. As always, so much has happend within a month, it is just incredible, but I seemed to make it through and stay sober through it all. My last post above on the 26th of May I shared that I was so excited about my new job and how that was going so well, as fate may have it, I am no longer there. As much as I wanted to make that job work and that I was the perfect fit for the position, it did not work out as I planned or had hoped it would. The company was just in too much dissarray and the company was and is in danger of closing its' doors. So I was only a temporary employee there and they had to let me go because they were not making that much money to keep me on. Back to the drawing board.
June 27, 2012
Today began with a little anxiety. I woke up and noticed my dog, Maddy, was sick. She was very lethargic and had no energy and also had blood in her stool. I completely fell apart and did not know what to do and panicked. I made some rice for her with some chicken broth and watched her and rubbed her tummy and kept her close to me. She is a little Shi-tzu and to me, she means everything. My little baby.
I also had a follow up doctor's apointment today to go over my blood work taken a few weeks ago and I am completely estatic with the news I received today. I am HIV Positive and last Novemember I needed to go on HIV medication and was completely distraught about it, not because of having to go on the medication but because my HIV virul load sky rocketed and my CD4 or white blood cells had fallen from 1126 down to 720! Of course when I heard the news from the doctor, I fell apart and started to cry. He assured me that everything will be alright and that he recommended at that time that I start my HIV medication. I agreed, but my head was trying to convince me that I was going to die. I immediately started my medication and was lucky that it was only one pill at night and am completely grateful for the fact that I had become positive in a time when the science of it all has progressed to the point where I can live a complete and fruitful life and that this is like having the common cold and not to be frightend about this and to live my life to the fullest.
My apointment today confirmed that I can live that long and fruitful life because my doctor informed me that I am now UNDECTABLE! There is no sign of the HIV virus in my system! I could not be any more grateful. I was doubtful in the begining and her we are completely turned around and healthy as a horse. I thank God for listening to all my prayers.
