Sunday morning, feeling a bit better than yesterday .......
sitting here having my coffee, thinking of when I was a baby, well with
what I remember anyway, my childhood was wonderful. I didn't have a
care in the world or any worries. I was always a happy baby, smiling,
giggling all the time.
As our parents always do, they take us to get our baby pictures done at
an early age, well, when I was just about 6- months to a year old, mom
and dad took my to K-mart, yes K-mart, to get my pictures taken. My mom
told me that it was an all day affair, in a good way. As the
photographer started to give me my "props" i.e. teddy bear, telephone
etc, I started to giggle in only a way a baby giggles ...... that
uncontrollable giggle that makes you, yourself, start to laugh so hard,
giggle if you will, until tears start running down your face kind of
giggle. Even the photographer had to stop and gather his composer
because of the laughter he was engaged in himself. My mom said that a
crowd began to form around the photo booth and enjoy the show in a good
way. Everyone told my mom what a beautiful baby I was and how is that
he is so happy all time? My mom just told the crowd that she could not
be any happier to have me as her son, brings her so much joy.
As I think about these memories and look back at how my life has been
and where I am now, I ask myself, WTF!? I love to play the victim in all
of this, but I am getting too old and I just don't care anymore
........ Where has my life gone, drugs, partying and wasting away the
last twenty years of my life! With the introduction of Facebook into
our lives and other social media outlets, I see my old high school
friends ..... they all have families, great jobs and homes and most of
all a life I wish I had.
Anyway I will continue this later on ....... I am not wanting to "feel" right now .........
I definitely can understand the feeling of wasting away. Even if it's not 20 years, a feeling of wasting can take place in 3 months, a year, or even five. That's why I made a comittment to myslef never to waste my own time. Every quarter of school I want to sit out and rest and I think about "what if I had of done that last quarter" I wouldn't be as far as I am "this quarter".
ReplyDeleteI also can get down with some K-Mart Portrait Studio pics. I have a set of those as well.
At the end of everyday I rememebr that this is the only life that I will be given. There will be no second chance to get this right or do the things how I wanted to do them. I won't be back to redo what I could have done initially and that can be difficult for others to adopt or to understand, but what becomes more important than anything is that I understand it and I await to opportunity to surround myself with those who understand this as well!